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H A P P Y  V A L E N T I N E S  D A Y to everyone, i hope it all goes well for you...

Im home sick today and so im looking at cars i want...a g a i n

im gonna go now though because i feel like s h e i t ...

m a y b e, just m a y b e... this will make you happy:
i wonder, what itd be like to drown
in your own tears, and get ride of all the pain
from your fears... and take down with you
everything you had, all the pride you finally built
all the friends you felt you had, just leave it all behind

i wonder, what itd be like to R U N A W A Y
in your own town, what itd be like to hide
and always have a frown on your face, as you get ride
of all the memories... and take with you
everything you still want, and forget the pain
the drama, your family and just leave it all behind.

i wonder, what itd be like to live in the clouds
up above in the sky, what itd be like to fly
and just die, as you finally get the relieve
from all the shit you've been through, and leave
everything... and it wont even matter
what everyone thinks of you, and everyone will forget
what you used to do, because you finally left it all behind

JUST  l e a v e  i t  A L L  behind [its not as hard]
-- Veda  m a r i e

by the way, here are all the cars i am looking at [tell me which one you like]:
 BMW 525i

BMW 325is Manual Coupe

1996 Chevy Blazer

 1998 chevy Cavalier RS coupe

 1999 Chevy Tracker

 1994 Chevy S10 blazer 4 door 4x4

 1994 Ford Explorer 4 Door 4x4

 1991 Ford Explorer

 1992 Isuzu Rodeo S *

 1995 Jeep Grand Cherokee Laredo 4x4

 1995 Jeep Grand Cherokee Laredo 4x4

 1994 Jeep Grand Cherokee

 1994 Jeep Cherokee

 1993 Jeep Grand Cherokee

 1988 Land Rover Range Rover *

 1985 Mercedes-Benz 190E 2.3 Sedan

 1988 Mercedes-Benz 190E 2.3 Sedan

 1992 Saab 900 Convertible S

 1995 toyota celica

 1992 Toyota 4Runner

 1990 Volkswagen Cabriolet

 1997 Volkswagen Jetta GT

 1993 Volvo 850 

well this weekend... let me tell you it was e x c i t i n g... and now i just want to be left alone for a day or two.... but that wouldnt be such a g o o d  idea.

friday night... i went over to rileys house after school and we went and looked at this ugly house lol it was funny and we then went to a church in clintonville for this thing called "the coffee shop" (or something like it) with holly, christine and casey.  That was fun i guess i didnt know anyone so i just walked around with casey and ri.babe, and after that we drove around with Kelly who goes to waterson.... and then holly and i slept over at rileys house...

s a t u r d a y...
went to kelseys and that didnt turn out to well so cristi holly and i left and went to my house and slept at my house... (erin left kelseys after like 20 minutes) and then today:

i had a violin concert after church... and i drove for the first time on the express way today!  and my arm f r e a k i n  H U R T S !  and i ate lunch at cici's pizza and i think im getting sick....

so now im gonna go finish my public speaking homework... talk to you all l a t e r

well today was fun... just hung out with people... and went to school and got 50 more candy bars... C OM E  A N D  B U Y  T H OS E  F R OM  M E ! !

and i didnt really have homework -- and im bored right now so im gonna leave now... l o l

t t y l...

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Find a guy who calls u beautiful instead of hot,
who calls u back when u hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to ur heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch u sleep...

wait for the boy who kisses ur forehead,
who wants to show u off to the world when ur in sweats,
who holds ur hand in front of his friends,
who thinks ur just as pretty without make up,
one who is constantly reminding u of how much he cares,
loves being with u, cares about u,
and says how he's the luckiest guy in the world to have u
[[I - W I S H - I  c o u l d  h a v e  t h i s...]]

i t  i s  w e d n e s d a y  a f t e r n o o n... 
and i am currently at home, doing nothing.  o boy o boy.... i think i have written more poetry in the last two days than i have in one week... well i dont relaly have anything exciting to tell you except im not doing my h o m e w o r k.... how exciting

H E R E is a song that i L O V E!

When i made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for God, somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into
When i finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me so unsure of these
Things i ask myself, i ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into 

I'm getting into you
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into you
Because i've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love you with my life

When he looked at me and said
I kind of view you as a son
And for a second our eyes met
And i met that with a question
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

I've been a liar and i'll never amout to
The kind of person you deserve to worship you
You say you will not dwell on what i did but rather what i do you say
I love you and thats what you are getting yourself into

He said, i love you and thats what you are getting yourself into
(Getting into you, Relient K)

well i am sitting at home... doing nothing i have finished like all my homework and so i have nothing to do...

I'm not grounded anymore, that is a YAY...
and im watching a movie -- and here r e a d  t h e s e:

Where do i start, there's so much to tell...
please, stay calm, i might start to yell --
Well, do you remember the days
that i used to say:
"I wish i could run away"?

that day is now near,
but by then i'll be gone for good, so just listen here --
don't go, i need comfort from someone who cares
to let all my last words out until my insides are bare
first take my hands, they're starting to shake
now let me tell you what makes my body ache

i used to tell you that i loved you
and it was true, nothings changed and nothings new
i remember i wanted to let go
but i knew id miss you so
we had our arguments, we had our moments
now we've grown up and nothings different

i still wish you would've told me
that you loved me -- it wouldve set me free
from all the pain
and from all the stains
of blood...
that would rush from my skin like a flood

we spent so much time,
and i knew i wasnt worth a dime
but i kept going because i was happy
and i never felt the least bit crappy
but now, im gonna miss you
as i leave memories of what we used to do
and as i wither away and die
i start to cry --

my last words on this day face to face
at this moment and at this place
are the words i love you,
and i miss you too
i caused too much trouble
and now the pain has doubled
i wish you could imagine, i wish you could see
what happened that made me be
I'm ready, but are you ready as well?
to hear and help me tell
everyone else my last adventures to make
before i take [my life]

so please dont miss me too much, and please dont cry
because then it will make it that much harder to die...
-Veda Marie

rain
falls from the sky
like a tear
dropping from my eye
       thunder
       cries from the clouds
       like a scream
       flowing from my mouth
lightning
strikes and cracks a tree
like a stab of a needle
that abruptly pierces into me
       then the following silence
       shows the quiet side of me
       as i lay on the ground
       while my soul flies free....
-Veda Marie

there we go. i wrote those

l e a v e a c o m m e n t... t t y l